I spent half my day fearing it wasn’t real, and the other half squirming in disbelief. Could this be happening? Was I crazy? I had been raised by highly-educated atheists. Mainstream society absolutely did not accept the existence of such phenomena. The act of automatic writing itself was very amorphous – who was to say whether I was making up these messages or not? Was it all over-interpretation and wishful thinking, or was it a valid supernatural experience?